Choosing whether or not to breastfeed can be a very personal—and very tough—decision for new moms. And it’s one that Hilary Duff opened up about in a heartfelt Instagram post, where she shared why she recently stopped breastfeeding her daughter.
“Deciding to stop BFing was so emotional and hard. I thought about it ALL day everyday,” she wrote on Tuesday, explaining that it was her last day of nursing Banks, which she had done for her baby’s first six months. “But I needed a break. I was going to break. With the stress of a dropping milk supply and a baby that was getting bored or not caring about nursing when I was available to. I was sad and frustrated and feeling like a failure all of the time.”
Duff, who stressed that she was grateful for the moments she shared with her daughter and realized not every woman had that opportunity, went on to describe that trying to pump as a working mother was not only difficult but that she started feeling depressed because of the stress. “The lows felt horrible,” she said, adding that ” I cried many times and felt so depressed while weening. I wasn’t myself at all.”
Now, having stopped breastfeeding her daughter, Duff says that she and the rest of her family are much happier. And she hopes her post serves as a reminder to other moms that whatever they’re doing is enough.
“We are strong as hell over-achievers. I am amazed at all that we can do in one single day!” the Younger star wrote. “You are a [hero] every day for all that you do. Always putting yourself last and running a mile a minute…while carrying all of the bags lol.”
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THIS ONE’S FOR THE LADIES Just a few thoughts that I wanted to share on Breast-feeding. Last week was my last week nursing Banks (my six month old) I am a working mom of two. My goal was to get my little girl to six months and then decide if I (and her of course) wanted to keep going. Let me tell you. Pumping at work sucks. I had zero down time and am usually pumping in a hair and make up trailer while four hands work to get me ready for the next scene with lots of other people around. Even if I had the luxury to be in my own room, it’s not even considered a “break” because you have to sit upright for the milk to flow into the bottles! Plus you are having your damn nipples tugged at by an aggressive machine that makes an annoying sound, that echoes through your head day and night (I swear that machine and I had many conversations at midnight and 3 am)! Ttttthen having to find someplace to sterilize bottles and keep your milk cold (ok I’m done with that rant lol)! Anyway, I didn’t know this because with Luca I didn’t work until he was about nine months old, so I didn’t pump very often. Your milk supply drastically drops when you stop feeding as often and lose the actual contact and connection with your baby (😞). So I was eating all the feunugreek goats butt blessed thistle fennel cookies/drops/shakes/pills I could get my hands on! It was maddening. (Does fenugreek make anyone else smell like maple syrup and rubber gloves?…not chill) With all of this complaining, I want to say I enjoyed (almost) every moment of feeding my daughter. Felt so lucky to be so close to her and give her that start. I know many women are not able to and for that I am sympathetic and very grateful that I could. For six wonderful months. But I needed a break. I was going to break. With the stress of a dropping milk supply and a baby that was getting bored or not caring about nursing when I was available to. I was sad and frustrated and feeling like a failure all of the time. When really I’m a bad ass rock star. Moms get high on feeling like superwoman…because we are! Doing too much, because we can! KEEP READING in the comments below 👇🏼♥️