I wasn’t sure how to start, so I gave it to my five kids straight. We were in the van after summer camp pick-up when I broke some grim news.
“Guys, something sad happened today. Aunt Beverly died.”
My matter-of-fact, unemotional tone left the air of the minivan empty as they processed what I was telling them. We’d recently visited with Aunt Beverly so I could sense their confusion. I sat quietly, waiting for someone to pipe up with questions from the back.
First, my kids wanted to understand how I felt.
Vivi, my 8-year-old, chimed in first, “Daddy, did you cry?” I didn’t expect my kids to ask about my feelings – but each seemed riveted by how I reacted.
For my older children, I assume they wanted to understand “normal” responses to such dire news. I could see Yosef, my oldest at 11 years old, trying to figure out if I was angry or freaking out or sad or distracted. For my daughter and her younger siblings (all 8 years old and younger), the news instantly made her worry about me. Her question attempted to confirm that I was okay and, by extension, we’d carry onward as before.
I told Vivi, “Yes, I cried. But I’m okay now.”
Next, my kids wanted to talk about my aunt. Children are moment-to-moment, here-and-now creatures of impulse – spending little time in reflection. Parents of young kids (me) are as guilty of such an existence.
So, when Yosef asked, “Dad, did Aunt Beverly live a good life?”, I found it cathartic to share some of my favorite memories.
My kids were entertained by a few of my favorite tidbits:
As a kid, my brothers and I would run into Aunt Beverly’s front living room at the top of the hour to wait for the cuckoo bird to signal the hour. (Yes, she had a legit cuckoo bird clock!) My Aunt Beverly made the best Kool-Aid – with tons of real sugar! (She allowed us seconds without permission, too.) I had to let my kids know that my aunt went to baseball games in eight decades – including the afternoon we’d spent together at a ballgame just a week or so before her passing. (They asked if she loved soccer, too.)
It felt good to share these stories – not only as a way to tell my kids about her life, but as a dad authentically sharing without trying to do so in order to make a point.
I explained to Yosef, “Yes, Aunt Beverly lived a great life.”
Third, my kids wanted to talk about heaven.
Everett, my 4-year-old, was the first to bring up heaven, asking, “Beverly went to heaven. Right, Dad?”
I find a kid’s perspective on conceptual topics like heaven to be so entirely pure – free of judgment, bias, and any need for a conclusion. So, I intentionally started our discussion by saying, “I think so. I bet her version of heaven is at a ballpark, watching a game with her husband. What do you think?”
If you want to hear imagination, ask your kids about heaven.
I heard:
Everett (age 4): “I’d play baseball, too!”
Vivi (age 8): “In heaven, I’ll help people – and, do gymnastics all the time!”
Lynden (age 9): “Play soccer with Messi and Reynaldo – that’s what I’d do!”
Yosef (age 11): “I’m not sure. Wait, are you saying heaven isn’t the same for everyone?”
The three minutes we spent discussing heaven was nourishing, invigorating and, at times, simply hilarious. I told my son, “Yes, Everett, Aunt Beverly is in her own version of heaven. No doubt!”
I wished the ride home was longer that afternoon. In fact, although the conversation with my kids faded as I shifted the minivan into park, those 10 minutes still ring in my head.
It was as if the passing of my aunt allowed each of us to process together – to talk to each other about a variety of topics with no judgment, without the bounds of facts, with no hidden agendas.
When I picked up my kids that day, I felt down – and dreaded talking to them about such a tough subject. Reaching the driveway, though, I was energized and even refreshed. The way I figure it, Aunt Beverly left my family with three gifts that day – a chance to quickly unwind, a quiet opportunity to reconnect and, of course, a compelling reason for a lively whiffle ball game in the front yard when we got home.
Thanks, Aunt Beverly.
This article was syndicated from The Good-Bad Dad.
